Hoping Our Way Through Heartache

The phone call came in the middle of an otherwise normal afternoon. She could tell from the sound of my voice that I had not heard the news yet and would only say that there had been an accident.

That I needed to contact my husband directly.
That she was sorry.
And then she hung up.

In the stunned silence of that moment, everything that I knew fell away.
I could only pray and try to remember to breathe as I waited for him to call.

He was doing a medical procedure with a patient from prison and was stuck with a needle.
The patient had tested positive for Hepatitis C and there is no cure.

He would have to be tested every 3 months for Hepatitis C and HIV and we could no longer try and conceive a child for the next 6 months.

For a couple who has been struggling with infertility issues for the last 3 years and desperate for another child, this too felt like its own kind of prison sentence.

Infertility carves wounds wide and deep, often heavy and hidden inside a mama's heart.

Yet there is still hope among the heartache. 

And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. (Romans 5:5 NLT)

We found out today that Tim's blood work came back negative for both Hep C and HIV!!
Oh how grateful we are for God's love and mercy and shout out from the rooftops of His faithfulness!!


We begin again, choosing to hope our way through the heartache.